Lately...in the Emergency Room.

Lately, I have had a lack of interest in posting about work or anything for that matter. Call me cynical but already after 4.5 months I find myself wanting better pay and more staff. Tomorrow night I start working nights! I am excited, anxious and irritated all at the same time. I am doing this for 1: more money 2: the experience and 3: I am basically a scab and do not have much of a choice. I am just about to be on my own at work...whoa its really gone by quickly. A few weeks back I had a few patients tell me I was a great nurse and had great bedside manner, unfortunately they are not all that nice. I'd love to think I make a difference and when I do go home I usually think "I made it and no one died on my watch today." Sad. This job brings enormous responsibility, stress and demands. I guess I have to keep the fact in my mind that if the nurse messes up the patient dies...no big deal, right? I look forward to bringing in some night nursing stories and experience to this blog. For now I am too busy trying to work on adjusting my body in 2 days to work 12 hours all night long and save lives.